dear you.
please save me would you ?
save me from all those things that brought me down to the lowest.
i need you, i'm weak.
can't stand with all these, i'm not strong enough.
tied up with broken hopes and promises.
help me to get through all these, forget all the lies within.
i wanna start over, with you.
because i love you.
p/s: whoever you are out there, please ?
i'd rather lose by a mile because i built my own car, than win by an inch because someone else built it for me.
your car is your story, so don't let someone else write the book.
- moog
to be honest, i myself don't know what am i gonna do after this, i mean in the future.
still i'm on my way finishing my studies and so on, a bit far behind than others but yeah i'm struggling.
it's not that i'm not interested with studies anymore, i still wanna grab that scroll of mine someday, slowly catching up the flow.
just, i don't know how it's gonna be, i don't have my destination yet, but still i'm making my journey of life, achieving what i want, make both of my parents proud.
til the end.
i know my son and i know my daughter tapi still sampai sekarang aku tak tahu apa anak lelaki aku nak buat, tak habis habis dengan kereta dia - abah, 2014
last touch up before off to jb tomorrow.
dapat lah sikit mana yang patut, kereta tak lawa nak banding dengan kereta lelain.
fucking excited for this upcoming, few hours and counting. may god bless the journey, safe and sound pergi dan balik.
mom and dad fighting again and i'm so not in fucking mood.
left alone as usual.
p/: i wish i could stay away and gone for a while
they said just don't give a care, and you'll be fine.
i've tried and i can't.
it still hurts me much.
choices i made, decisions i took, path i walked.
teaching myself to be more heartless, i guess i was born with 'not to hate'.
yet, i'm still struggling.
p/s: i'm not giving up, i just keep myself for distance
why do you always fall down ?
because i can learn to get back up again.
why don't you give up and let it go ?
because i can't, if i just given up that way and it keep hunting me in the future, makes me regrets all the time.
do you regrets about all the decisions you made ?
no i didn't, because it's way of life i living in, being regret of mistakes i made doesn't change a thing, instead of that i just keep moving and learn from wrong doings and not to make the same mistakes again.
new setup for lil erni.
no more low, it's poking time!
guess, this is safer way for daily drive, it's alright it's okay, still Stance & Fitment mode.
p/s: gonna miss that 'livin that low life'
busted my driveshaft again, old man gonna kill if he knows it.
so gotta change my setup for daily drive tho. it's 'poke fitment', no more lowered as fuck.
guess i can 'lenjan' back with lil erni on highway. phew.
p/s: barai barai barai barai
bila sesuatu benda dah jadi trending, maka badan kerajaan mula menjadikan ia sebagai satu kesalahan di sisi undang undang kata mereka.
Stance and Fitment Culture
bila keluarnya idealogi bodoh lagi tak berakal, dikatanya semua sport rim 'lebar' itu adalah 'rota', sayangnya, bila dikatanya sebegitu, kami pun pakat gelak ramai ramai, bangang abadi tak pernah nak habis segelintir 'badan kerajaan' ni.
kenapa perlu dikatakan salah ? apakah kami ni punca kemalangan seperti dikatakan ? adakah kerana ramai seperti kami ni wujud di mesia ni dan kamu semua boleh 'mengambil kesempatan' ke atas kami ni ?
sudah sudahlah, cari lah benda lain yang lagi berfaedah kalau nak buat kerja, kami Stancer yang bermain dengan hobi kami, bukan kami lakukan jenayah besar. rata rata yang punca kemalangan tu sendiri disebabkan sikap pemandu yang bebal, bukan disebabkan hanya jentera tayar kepak tu sendiri, tak percaya ? buka balik statistik kemalangan tu, check balik. ada sebab tayar kepak kengkang jadi punca ? ada sebab Stance and Fitment ni penyebab utama kemalangan di mesia ni ? no, tiada sama sekali.
by the way, before nak menuding jari kat kami semua ni, cuba lah korang check sendiri anak anak buah korang tu, staff staff korang tu, kebanyakan jentera dorang tu lagi lahanat dari kami. tinted gelap, hid, ubahsuai sampai hilang identiti sebenar kereta, lagi jahanam semuanya, dorang boleh je ? jangan tutup mata dengan salah sendiri tapi sibuk nak menuding jari cari salah orang lain wahai jpj, begitu juga dengan trafik polis dan sebagainya. terus terang saya cakapkan, anda memang bagus buat kerja anda, tak dinafikan.
i guess, hobi ni tak akan pernah habis di sini, buat lah apa pun, kami tetap perjuangkan apa yang kami minat, tak akan berkubur di sini. hentikan jadi dungu, buka mata dan perhatikan alam sekeliling. kami tak minta anda untuk suka kami, hanya terima dengan kehadiran dan wujudnya kami di sini. cuba meniru dunia luar ? come one lah, hidup kita ni pun asalnya meniru, jangan jadi lurus sangat nak membangkang semua benda.
anda teruskan dengan kerja anda, kami teruskan dengan minat kami
cheers mafakas.
i took lil erni to workshop for repairing today, spent 500++ bucks for adjustable services and new coil spring. sigh.
poket dah nipis duduk rumah jadi budak baik laaa
well spent i guess, got more low than before. fiuhh.
til' next time yo.
current mood: mentally and emotionally abused.
FUCK IT, I HATE IT
things that brought me up to the highest, bring me down back to the lowest
now everything seems to be far away and faded. after a while, it does makes sense and now i know.
remember how we met back each other ? that was last year and that time i was so excited, and so did you.
i met you back and i let it all out to you, you loved it and i was the happiest man on earth.
but then, days after days, after few dates and away, you seems to be changed a bit, you were no longer excited as you used to do, i wondered.
what happened ? something told me there were something weren't right. i don't know it but i can feel it, until now.
'something does meant to be unknown for better or worst'
p/s: i wish i knew what it is
woke up to this news, an airplane of Malaysian Airlines was lost and undetectable of radar during flight from Kuala Lumpur to Beijing 0240 hours.
may everything will be alright and may all the passengers and all the crews safe sound.
my prayers be with all of you, amin
4 pagi dan masih belum lelap, ah sial. waktu macam ni lah yang sangat celakanya, bila akal fikiran jauh di dalam mula berfikir tentang perkara yang tak patut terlintas.
kau di situ, kau di sini, kau di sana dan kau di mana mana tu
bila otak mula berfikir jantung juga mula mengepam laju, akal melintaskan perkara silam yang patutnya ditanam dalam dalam, hati mula gelisah gundah dan menyampaikan deria kepada otak dan lalunya mengarah kepada tubuh badan untuk bertindak dan lazimnya perbuatan bodoh akan dilakukan dengan lagaknya oleh seorang insomnia.
p/s: jujur aku rindu
whats up with friday ? just nothing to be amaze. same old same old, different weeks.
lepak, makan, sembang, bahan, gelak gelak
i wish there's something can change that, i mean something make me feel excited about upcoming. i'm no longer feel that way, i feel empty, numb, nothing.
p/s: i hate this 2014
when it came to hobby, there's a passion.
if you really into something, you will try hard enough to achieve that for yourself,
blood, sweat, money
i did spent all my money on my car, it's the only thing i love to do at all, it's my passion beyond everything.
i may not rich, but at least i got what i wanted for, paying with what i need to make sure, all the things i could possible get, i'm going for it.
they may not understand, they may not know but who cares ? we do what we do best, we're going for what we wished for. not for others, not for anyone else, but ourselves.
none but ourselves can free our mind - bob marley
2 paper down for yesterday and today and so mid-semester break for 2 weeks started now.
makan tidur lepak la jawabnya
i wish i have 10k bucks in my hands now, so much things can do for lil erni.
dream on danie.
'you don't know how strong you are until being strong is the last choice you got'
keep on fighting, who knows better future is coming ahead of us.
i've been worst, yet i'm still breathing well. surrounds by the people i love and care, surviving living in this cruel world, i'm blessed
got stucked again on speedbump for the 4th times. i see haters, i see people with silly smiles on their fucking face, hell i care.
go harder or go home
p/s: thanks to them who helped me pushed the car to get over the bump
when everything seems to fuck me up, i just grab my car key and drive around without known destination, just drive and let it all out.
without cares, without hesitations.
there's something about engine that calms me down - Jesse, The Fast and The Furious
hello there,
this is my 2nd time on blogging. had to delete the old one cause too much craps in it, so yeah i started the new one here. anyway, thanks for reading.
cheers,
- danie faizal