im sorry

im sorry if im letting you both down, i know im not a son that you can be proud of, im sorry since i was born im not being a person as you wish for, thank you for raising me good, teaching me things i need to know in this life, somehow i dont know if i could repay back for what everything youve given me,

im sorry

dont ask me, im lost too

its been 2 weeks since ive done my internships, so whats next for me ? continuing for further studies ? or get a job ?

tbh,

i dont even fucking know, i havent think about anything yet, but im afraid if im being too easy on myself now, i might being too lazy to get up and do things oh fuckk, god i hate myself!