at first, its kinda fun and excited, meeting with new friends, going thru with new experiences, getting all the knowledges, having fun and so on, but then eventually at some points, when you have your name rising up, lot of people are getting to know you in person, trust me things will change, like im going thru right know, idk where i did wrong with all these, i know sometime i could mess things up but really i dont expect things will came out from me like this, its like every single thing you do and people starting to talk about behind your back, starting to hating on you, couldnt saying the truth in front of you and serving you with bullshits, the fact is people starting to envy you because what have you achieved and so on,
idk,
these kinda things are more complicated than what it may be seen, truth to be told its sucks much, it feels like everything is turning back against you, at this time then youll know which one are standing beside and support you, or others may be like they are just like another 'talk like cock' kinda people you know, well i guess i have to lay low for a while or maybe its the way its gotta be, im sorry if i did things arent meant to be, and i know im just another 'newbies' who trying to fit in with other 'big boys'
til next time,